This new year is bringing a steadiness that tends to be absent from my jittery, resolution-induced mind. Perhaps it's better described as a moment of intense peace; I feel no need to resolve something that feels perfectly at home. For four years, the new year meant Brian left and more time apart; this would spur a rapid response from my brain. All the things I wanted to do and try and accomplish in order to stay distracted from the months ahead. In a way I looked forward to this time--I love any reason to call something a fresh start--but it certainly died off after a bit. I would still try to hold on to my goals (because I l.o.v.e goal setting and get so much pleasure from it) but the excitement and zeal would just wither away.
I was feeling a little curious the past two weeks; wondering where my jitters and excitement were. Wondering what was going to be jotted down on my list in my fresh journal. But as I'm sitting here typing this, Rue on my lap, Brian sick with a cold in bed, I'm having a beautiful moment of realization. My jitters and excitement for change are simply not coming, Our little house with the tiny kitchen, hilly roads outside to run, trees surrounding to comfort us, it's all enchanting right now. Not because we are living an exquisite life, but rather because we're together, loving each other as hard as we can and working every day to be better.
All that being said, Brian and I have set a few goals together as we start our marriage this year.
1. We want to simplify. So much stuff and clutter and extras have piled up and there's two reasons this is happening. The first being, people are generous and know we're just starting out and like giving us their stuff. That's awesome but now we're overflowing and our kitchen is tiny. Second, we're oddly sentimental about things and attach a lot of meaning to inanimate objects. This is coming from a gal who personifies Mt, Hood and asks her cousin to tell her hi when she sees the mountain around town. So we're purging.
2. Selling. Instead of just making a billion goodwill runs we are trying to be strategic about how we rid our house of certain things so we aren't just dumping money down the drain.
3. Downsizing debt. We have an actual plan for paying down student loan debt and it requires us to be really aggressive with our savings! This is like a game because i HATE student loans and cannot wait for them to go away.
4. Less screen time. This is really important to us. No mindless scrolling. No last few articles. No tv all the time, We didn't grow up like this and certainly don't want to live like this so this is an exciting change to be making!
Welp that's all that's here right now! Happy New Year!